I feel like a f###### w####. That's it. That's all I can think. I went to his house to talk. Just talk. And then... and then it all went to s###. He had me straddled over his lap. Making out. Not just kissing, but like... lip-sucking, tongue-biting. It was intense. And then he got on top of me. On top of me. Feeling under my shirt. Tugging at my jeans. Trying to get my bra off. I let him... I let him suck on my b####. Bite my nipples. What the f### is wrong with me? I ended up having to leave because my mom was on her way home. Like some g###### teenager sneaking around. He's not my boyfriend. He probably doesn't even want to be. And I... I've never done anything like that before. Ever. And I feel f###### terrible. Dirty. Used. Ashamed. Like I gave away something I shouldn't have. Like I'm less of a person now.