I've been head-over-f######-heels for this guy since December, and we finally made it official in February. For the record, I'm a Pisces, and he's an Aries, whatever the h### that means 🙄. But seriously, picture this: he's like that ridiculously cute, nerdy type who shreds on guitar in a band. And get this – virgin alert! Like, hasn't been touched by a woman other than his mom. Apparently, that's a fact.
So, apparently, his grandma kicked the bucket over the weekend or sometime yesterday. They were super close, which, okay, that sucks. Yesterday, Monday, he bailed from school super early, like 8 or 9 in the morning. His buddies told me he was just exhausted and bummed out, so after school, I texted him, asking why he wasn't there and telling him I missed his stupid face. Hours later, he just says "family stuff." Fine. I see him at school today, and I'm walking him to his class, and that's when he drops the grandma bomb. We did the usual hug and peck thing before he goes in. But today, he was totally off. I kept asking if he was okay, and he'd say he was "fine" but also "not great." Usually, he's all sweet and cuddly, but not today. And then, get this – GET THIS! When we were hugging goodbye outside his class, the m########### SWERVED MY F###### KISS! Said, "Not today." NOT TODAY?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! 🤬
Of course, I played it cool, wished him the best, gave him my condolences, told him how awful I felt for his loss. But seriously, it felt like a g###### punch to the gut when he dodged my kiss. You guys don't even understand how obsessed I am with this dude. He's all I think about, all I talk about. He's hands down the best guy I've ever dated, and I really thought he felt the same way. I know I shouldn't make this about me, but I was talking to my friends, and one of them is all doom and gloom, saying he doesn't love me. The other one just said to give him space, which, yeah, maybe I should.
Again, I'm trying not to be selfish and totally get that he's going through h### right now, but it just f###### hurt because he's NEVER done that before. Usually, he's the one pulling me in for a kiss!
WHAT THE ACTUAL F### AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?! PLEASE, someone tell me. I love this guy so d### much it's insane! Ugh! #TeenageDrama #BoyfriendProblems #FirstLove #HeartbreakMaybe #Confused #HelpMe