Yeah so basically. What happened was that after my mother died it made my attachment issues 1000000x worse. I've always kinda had an issue with becoming codependent on people and latching onto one specific person but only recently did it become this severe. And this friend of mine now no longer wants anything to do with me. They have not only cut off me but several of our other friends because I am dating someone who talked badly about them. I was under the impression things between them were fine now because he apologized. They knew I was close friends with him and did not say anything. I would have stopped being friends with him and never dated him had they simply communicated they had an issue with it, but they didn't. They didn't communicate anything. They just...blocked me and everyone else in our friend group on everything. Most people are dating our side except for one other friend who I really, really trusted.
I ended up in the hospital over this because I wanted to kms so bad but also wanted to keep myself safe. I wanted to, at least, live to have some nice moments with my boyfriend.
But I think the biggest motivation was hoping they'd change their mind and they haven't. I feel so devasted. Everything I've done with them and for them has just been for nothing. They really don't want anything to do with me. They didn't notice or care I was gone when I was in the hospital.

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