(5729 pt3) i still miss them, its been a long time but i still wonder where they are, i hope they got better without me, i know i bring people down and i know all i do is cause harm and im better off alone but i still want to know what being held close feels like i still want to be loved, i know its selfish to befriend people when i know ill just cause them harm but the few moments i get with people online, they make me feel okay even if its back to nothing when they leave the room