I’m stuck with this girl I swear I love her and hate her at the same time. I wanna be close to her but sometimes I can’t even stand her touch, like my skin crawls. We fight about every d### thing. And the worst part is I know she’s manipulative as h###, it’s not like a “bad habit,” it’s literally her personality, baked in. She pulls strings like it’s air to her. And yet there’s this weird piece of her that’s got a good heart and she knows she’s selfish and wants to be better, and I hold onto that like an idiot. But wanting to change isn’t the same as changing. She’s still controlling, still explosive, still her. And I don’t know how the h### to get out. I feel like I’m choking but also terrified to breathe without her.