honestly i dont even know anymore. i feel selfish for even saying it but i just want out. i want to stop everything. i wanna drop out of uni for a year or forever idc anymore. i work every d### weekend too like when the h### do i even get to be alive? i’m 17 and all i do is school and work and i feel like i’m 40 already. everyone says “you’ll thank yourself later” but later feels like death to me. i want right now.