[Snorlax is back! + Long Story 😭]
(Online relationships!)

Brace yourselves! You'll be in for a ride! 💜

Will say again that English isn't my first so I do apologize if it isn't great, and I know what I feel and will try to communicate it.

It's been a while since I've been on here, and well, I haven't been ranting a lot. I was, but to my friends who were there to comfort me!

So recently has just been an emotional rollercoaster and I've never been better now.
Those few months that i've been away had its toll on me, but I've managed to pull through! :D

So since I've come back on here.. Might as well start off with something that made me happy!

First of all.. For the ones who remembered my first story?
It was me and my boyfriend who has neglected me for months, yes. That one.

I have just moved on and tried to focus on myself, and completely distract myself with the stuff I usually do, but also talk to my friends more and them having my back is the best comfort I could ask for 💜

But of course, I still am friends with him. And we're on good terms with each other.

Though now after a while.. And I mean just continuing to focus on myself.. Someone came along, actually came back rather back into my life!

You may all say I'm stupid and foolish but.. I'm back with my ex, mhm, yup.
But would you hear me out on why?

So.. The reason for breaking up in the first place was that I had a very nosy brother in law in which at that time I worked for as a nanny for my elder sister. And.. My relationship with my ex back then was private, and I didn't want anyone knowing of anything just yet, and how my mother is strict for very good reasons.

But also I was pressured to tell my mother that my ex wanted to court me. No, I was not pressured by my ex, I was pressured that my brother in law had spread the news that I was talking to someone, and so I had to come front with my mother.

And so when I told her, I was denied, I was rejected. She didn't allow it.
And yes, I understand that I was young at that time, and yes, I do know that sometimes boys on the internet are not what they say they are and if they would actually do it.

In the end I was not the only one heartbroken, but also my ex.
On the new years our relationship went downhill, I was stuck on what I wanted to do, I didn't want disobey my mother, but I didn't want to break up with him either.. I was confused, hurt, and upset.

But in the end I had to break up with him, and that wasn't easy for me Or him. We were both hurting, I wanted to comfort him and so did he. But I was silent. I couldn't utter nother word without hurting both of us even more.. I didn't want to do it, but I did. And it has deeply hurt us since.

I was there.. Sitting in front of my pc, I was even happy because I was just playing games. But I broke down as I held my phone, trying to stop myself from making any noise from crying, because my sibling and my mother were just behind me doing their own thing. It was such a hard time.. So I cried for like a few seconds and tried to fix myself up before they noticed.

Funny thing is.. Which isn't by the way, is that.. I tried to act nonchalant, tried to act like I was okay. But in reality it had my heart broken up into tiny little pieces.. I Loved Him, Dearly.

More than words, more than actions, he really deserved it all. He was the only guy who's treated me right, and there I was ruining it.. I Ruined the chance I had with him.
Let's play a game, Was it my fault?

So then moving on.. I've always had him on my mind 24/7, in the back of my mind even! You may call me that I'm weird or creepy.. But I kept checking in on him if he was doing alright, I was concerned about him.

I kept checking his profile, his account.. To know if what was he up to. I still- No, I Cared about him a lot even after months and the break up.

Time continued to pass by like a blur, no matter what he was just there, I've thought him, like he lives in my head rent free.. haha.

We rarely got in touch, maybe have had some small talks.. But it wasn't the same.. Sure, we still were the same people we both know of, but everything had shifted and changed.

I was being distant because I thought he hated me, despised me even after what I put him through..
Meanwhile with him.. He was trying to talk to me, wanting to try again, but I didn't know at that time because I was being cold and distant towards him, but I still talked to him the same, just not the same warmth like what it used to.

During that year we broke up or even a year after that, he was flirty, even though I tried to set boundaries between us, that we should just be friends instead. As I told him that, it hurt him. But because I didn't know that he wanted to try Us again.

Fast forward to 2025.. and the day before my birthday.. There he was.
He messaged me, y'know.. A simple discord ping was all it took for me to get my attention. And luckily I was on too, and so I engaged in a really long conversation with him, tried to lift up and brighten up the mood.

It was all going great until I kept on discovering shocking things about him and what had happened to him over the last 2 years.

From that day onward we just kept on talking, he stayed and waited for me patiently to come back because I was busy with work. He is such a great guy.. :((

But after the month of my birthday he had dropped a.. (can I say bomb? I'm afraid of triggering the website) but so yeah, he told me that the longer we were both away is when he truly realized that he cared a lot about me and loved me even more.

He drops that "Do you want to be my girlfriend?" And.. I don't know what was with me, but I was over the moon, but I know I should've thought about it, but Dear me.. With no hesitation I said yes.. 😭

Like.. Yes, we've talked about our relationship back then and what we wanted to do with it now, we are good!!

Aannddd so nooww.. Fast forward now to August! :DD

We are very happy with each other, we love each other even more than before and we have just been happy from the moment we talked again there on out!! ( ◜‿◝ )♡

I love him very dearly, more than myself, and more than cats, LOL!
I can never and could Never find a guy like him, no guys I've dated will ever come in close to being like him. He is just so genuine, so loving, and he's been nothing but an amazing boyfriend to me, and I Promise to take care and to cherish him from now on and ever! 💜

Now.. I'll be able to meet him in person very soon! :DDD

[Side notes: ..Do I even include one-]
1) My mother now is okay with who I date and see, but she is just afraid that I still hadn't moved on from the traumatic experience I had back in 2023, yes, the same year me and my boyfriend broke up. Because after that incident, I was afraid of men, of guys.. And I was uncomfortable of being around one. But I am okay now, I'm slightly conscious but I'm alright! :]

2) I actually don't know what else to put, so commenting would be lovely if anyone is curious!!