man, im so d### tired these days. friends dont feel like one anymore, i feel useless, and my mom keeps getting mad everytime i rest. she say stuff like how i have no use in this household and how i have it much easier like d### im just tryna rest here, like, ill be useful when im properly rested. and i cant even eat without feeling like a rat bro even the smallest bit of food make me feel bad about myself, ive been clean for a month and this situation made me wanna do tht sh.t again.