I keep trying to reach out to my family for love and support because I have felt super depressed and alone and forgotten lately. Tonight I specifically told my mom I feel like I'm always alone and I don't matter to anyone so logically she goes on a rant about how I only have myself and the only person who can fix this is myself. It just reinforced all of the loneliness I felt in the first place. I told her all I want is a shoulder to cry on and someone to understand, she doesn't get it.