I feel like I’m second best at everything. No matter how hard I try, I’m never good enough. Im second in my grade; in crew, second best on the team; in dance, second choice for lead role; in band, second chair. I ran for office in all of my clubs and got nothing at all. I’ve battled with anorexia, depression, anxiety, and OCD for years because of how much I try and have a need to succeed. This is my senior year and it was my last time to see if my work was worth it. I haven’t felt emotion in yrs