The proship/antiship debate is kinda interesting to me but also can we not send death threats over it is not that serious. Anyway the fiction you like doesn’t inherently reflect your morals 🔥🔥🔥

Ever since I met that one friend I’ve gotten a lot worse mentally. I think it’s due to me mirroring them, becoming overly attached, and getting used to that intensity when I was their FP. I liked it. I liked them constantly thinking about me and interacting with me and I miss that, even if things are HEALTHIER now. I’m way too overly attached and don’t know how to stop and I’ve noticed I’m starting to become overly attached to some other people like it’s my brain’s way of coping.
I have a “crush” on two friends but I’m very hesitant to do anything about it both due to general anxiety and a fear that I don’t truly love them but rather the idea of them and therefore our relationship would be unhealthy. But I really, really wanna date them both… they’re both polyamorous and dating each other so it’s...Read Full Rant

Another cigarette. Burning it all away, just like him. Every puff, his ghost. Pathetic. Need to stop both. But the smoke and the memories... tangled. Self-destructing, thinking of someone who probably doesn't give a d###. S##### way to live. When will it end?

f##### sometimes I just get sad outta nowhere ya know? Like, just hits me. And I f##### hate it. Don't even know why. Just... bleh. Don't like feelin' like s### for nothin

I'm so f###### frustrated with myself. I know I need to exercise, like, desperately need to. But this g###### depression just weighs me down, makes it feel absolutely impossible to even get started. And the worst part? I've been here before. Lost some weight, felt good for a bit, then just... gave the h### up. Twice! Now I'm back to square one, and honestly, finding a million bullshit reasons not to even try isn't helping anyone, least of all me. I just need to kick my own d### b### and do it already. No more f###### excuses.

I really don’t think I’m his crush. This makes me feel really sad. I thought I was. What if I ruined my chance

Trying not to randomly ask people "Do you hate me" or say "I miss you" (we talked 10 minutes ago) is a daily agony

This whole situation is absurd. So basically. I have a friend with BPD and likely some other cluster B disorder and we became friends and I was their FP. Me being their FP means they gave me lots of attention and I really enjoyed it.
But nowadays I’m not really their FP anymore. I am genuinely a close friend of theirs. But they have a problem with avoiding those they genuinely care about. So it’s led to me feeling unwanted or abandoned and like I NEED to be their FP again even though me not being their FP is a good thing- it’s a sign they genuinely like and care for me MORE because the FP attachment is inherently shallow. But now we rarely talk and I’m so sad I wanna talk to them more come back care about me again please
(They literally do care about me a lot)...Read Full Rant

AHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHH

Turns out I have a severe vitamin D deficiency. That explains why I’ve been taking naps daily and still been exhausted.