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I went into an open marriage a while back. Recently my spouse cut it off and wanted to go back to a closed marriage. That's great and all but I think I was falling in love with the man I was seeing, I didn't think I was until we closed the marriage. IDK, this guy (lets name him Chad) Chad just treated my special, loved on me, made me feel like his one and only, felt like he stopped the entire rest of the world and focused on me. He wanted me and I could feel it thru my body. His body was excited to see me. Like his literal body was shaking with excitement! I miss that, I love the way that made me feel. Now, I'll never get to feel the same way again. My spouse doesn't make me feel the same. I love my spouse and he is good to me but its just not the same. I miss being "extra" happy. Chad has his own family so there was no chance we were going to run away together or anything. It was just good, clean, happiness.. I miss him alot.
I legit killed my kids goldfish today. Just f****** flushed it. So d*** tired of the stupid thing.
#IfeelBetternow #Offmychest #ByeBye
Okay but likeโฆ why does my dadโs girlfriend keep buyinโ me earrings?? Like every dang timeโearrings. Itโs like she saw me wear โem once and now decided thatโs just my thing forever. Not sayinโ I donโt appreciate it, theyโre cute and all, but how many earrings does one person even need?? I got a whole pile now sittinโ there like I run some kinda sparkly black market. Iโm startinโ to wonder if she even knows my name or just calls me โthe one with ears.โ What if I didnโt even have โem pierced?? Wouldnโt stop her, I swear.Itโs kinda sweet, kinda wild, and mostly just cracks me up at this point. Might just start wearinโ three pairs at once so she feels validated.
I really need to help make income however I struggle so bad with getting it done. I know I want to make shirts with HTV but after I get the business all set up, designs, made etc I lose interest. Like what is my problem??? Any help, I'm open to suggestions..
Oh my g**. Why does my husband always wait until heโs completely tired to do the most important things? Like, really? Youre running on iced coffee, can barely form a typed sentence, and now is the time you choose to tackle something that actually matters? Genius. Nothing says โgreat decision-makingโ like being half-asleep while handling things that require focus and clarity. Then when something goes badly, heโs shockedโlike wow, who couldโve seen that coming? Iโm not even mad at the mistake at that point, Iโm mad at the sheer audacity of thinking exhaustion is the perfect mindset for productivity. Itโs maddening. Just. Go. To. Bed. You. Do. Have. To. Go. To Work Later!
I'm at my breaking point. Everyone's sabotaging my dog's training, and I'm left dealing with the consequences. My partner, of all people, should know better, but they're too stubborn to listen. I'm the one who cares most about my dog's well-being, but no one takes me seriously. It's infuriating.
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Why do we have to be so broke?? We don't have money for groceries. If I can get a job it'll only be a few hours that i can work between kids school and therapies. I feel like we are drowning. Always drowning, I think i need to reapply for food stamps again. It f****** stupid that a small household cant live above water with one 40+ hr working parent, the other stays home, makes food from scratch while taking care of the two yr old. We aren't broke because we can't spend wisely, we are broke because society, job pays is not livable. Me getting a fulltime job, and sending the younger kid to daycare would not change anything. Childcare is not affordable :(
I feel sad all the time, and have no idea how to stop.