Okay, so there's this guy I've known for ages, like almost three years, and during all that time, he didn't have a girlfriend. Then, for the past year, he's been with someone who, honestly, I think is awful she's bossy, way too protective, and not attractive at all. The really messed up part is, I have serious feelings for him, and we're still sleeping together. He says he doesn't feel the same way about me. Sometimes I just want to completely erase him from my life, but it's so hard because I feel like he took a really important part of me, both emotionally and physically. I'm completely lost on what to do.
here I am, starting to date someone new. And honestly? They seem pretty fantastic, maybe even the kind of person I've been looking for. But it's way too early to know for sure. The thing is, my past dating history has me really hesitant to get my hopes up or get too involved. I'm definitely not looking for a casual hookup or just another friend. What I really want is something more meaningful, a real relationship. It's scary to want that again after everything else.
Few weeks ago this guy (my classmate in jhs) let me ride his motorcycle as I was already getting late on the place that I was going to (he is also going there). We have a history in jhs where my friend always ships us together. One day on a school event my friends put me and him on a blind date and I was literally bonkers that time and now that I'm thinking about it, it's really an embarrassing occurrence of my life. I also felt bad for him on that day cause we we're really awkward holding our hands together and doing any shts (Just an additional but I'm also an awkward person). Now that i'm older and him being a kind person must have clicked a button on me lol.
I don't really know if i like this person or I'm just amazed... Read Full Rant
Feeling too weird for normal people and too normal for weird people.
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sometimes i feel like i am never good enough
I feel like a f###### w####. That's it. That's all I can think. I went to his house to talk. Just talk. And then... and then it all went to s###. He had me straddled over his lap. Making out. Not just kissing, but like... lip-sucking, tongue-biting. It was intense. And then he got on top of me. On top of me. Feeling under my shirt. Tugging at my jeans. Trying to get my bra off. I let him... I let him suck on my b####. Bite my nipples. What the f### is wrong with me? I ended up having to leave because my mom was on her way home. Like some g###### teenager sneaking around. He's not my boyfriend. He probably doesn't even want to be. And I... I've never done anything like that before. Ever. And I feel f###### terrible. Dirty. Used. Ashamed. Like I gave away something... Read Full Rant
PS if India and Pakistan end up having a nuclear war, then there may be no India afterall, so the problems goes away, ya!