That felt so d### good 😍 I needed that
why can't people just listen to me?
i REALLY want to flirt with guys and get some d### like i haven't had any in months but everytime im around guys i can't maintain eye contact AT F###### ALL WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!
i need help, but i'm too f###### afraid to ask for it.
sometimes i wonder whether or not anyone genuinely cares about me.
I think I have POTS. It's genetic and has been diagnosed in multiple of my family members, and my symptoms/episodes align exactly with what my family experiences.
I live in Canada so the wait times for even a doctors visit are upwards of 2 months. I've literally waited 14 months for an appointment before. On top of my history of fainting (which to be fair, is pretty tame but still) I had an incredibly scary experience yesterday. I had completely collapsed and was unconscious for at least 15-20 seconds if not longer, and right after I sat back up after that I blacked out a second time. I vomited as well, like, full ejection of my stomach contents (sorry, yuck). Following this I couldn't even sit up for almost two hours. I was about away from home for a work thing, so I was taken to... Read Full Rant
I don't feel glad that I stopped SH instead I just felt the weight on my shoulders disappear and nothing else. I've heard people say that their proud of it, maybe I just don't get that idea at all. The only thing that I think is nice about stopping SH is that you don't need to change or buy razors so often and clean up after.
I'm sick, tired, sleep-deprived, hungry, unstimulated, and alone. I have too many worries dragging me down until I get like this.
I care more about everyone else than I do myself.
Anyone else in a situation where you desperately want help, and to get better mentally, but your situation literally does not let you. Like seriously what the h###. People tell you that first step to getting better is to ask for help! But what if I can't??? What if, if I ask anyone for help, I'll create more trouble for my family. I'll make everything harder for them, and I'll just be a nuisance. And it's not even me exaggerating, it's true.